Today was hard to get out of bed but I forced myself. I put socks on my feet and a sha-leak (can't spell it but I know you know what I mean) and I took time to appreciate the little things. The sun is shinning today and I fed the birds. I will be painting later today. Instead of my emotions being destrcutive I will be CONstructive because I know that's what you would tell me. It's hard without you. I won't get anymore cards or letters. I won't be able to call you and laugh with you. You will never get to see me get married; you always wanted me to find a nice guy. I wish you could give me advice for the heart ache I feel. How do I move on from this? How will I one day be okay with this? How do I comfort my mom? I still need you. We all still need your warmth and kindness. Maybe God needed you more. Love you Nana. I think about you all day every day.